Milestone Tuesday

Every Tuesday is a new milestone! Today is 9 weeks!! My next goal is 12 weeks, then 24 and hopefully we can go to 36-38 weeks!! One day at a time though! I feel really good and have only had two experiences of morning sickness. One thing I have to keep in mind though is even if I feel good, to still take it easy. Yesterday I was feeling great and decided to do a little light Christmas shopping. By the time I got home, sat for a minute and started dinner...... I hit a BRICK wall and spent the rest of the evening feeling bad. That wall was HARD!! I made sure to take a nap today so maybe tonight wouldn't be the same. A friend asked me what my cravings are and they are nothing what I thought they would be. I normally LOVE sweets and crave mint chocolate ice cream. Instead though I crave the craziest things!!! Tuna fish sandwiches (my dr said I could eat one every two weeks, torture because I want one every day), tangerines, lemon water, and breakfast burritos. Sweets actually don't sound good at all, except for Popsicles. 

On Saturday we took the kids to pick out their annual Christmas ornaments at Hallmark. Brit picked out a Barbie Ballerina, Brady a 1960's Ford Truck and Ben a Chuggington train. Afterwards we ran to Kohls to look at the maternity clothes. Talk about disappointment!!! They only had a small wall of clothes and nothing I could even fit my right leg into. By this time the babies were telling me it was time to EAT so we headed to Chipolte. I could eat Mexican food everyday not pregnant and pregnant well EVERYDAY for EVERY MEAL! lol. There was a Babies R Us down the street so we ran in to look around and see what we needed. We are trying to keep things on the most needed list for the time being since our house is quickly going to be smaller when the babies get here. I've had a lot of people ask me when we are moving or adding on. Neither of which will be happening! We will be staying put and def. not adding on for a while (well not adding on but going up, as we have a room upstairs we can finish out and put in a staircase). We've also been asked how we will arrange the rooms. I really have no idea right now. A lot of it because we don't know what the babies are yet. If they are one of each, it will be more manageable but if it's two boys or two girls, then that's were things get a little crazy. Then we prob. won't do any of that until the babies are much older. Ben spent the first 18 months in our room and I'm ok with that for these babies as long as they sleep good. Ben loved to sleep, but again something I won't know until they are actually here. Also, my SIL had a great point, if one's a girl, how will Brit feel about sharing a room with a five year old when she is 16?? I don't know, I've never had to do this before. All I know is that our family will make it work and God must have thought we would handle such a task. I have to admit though I get a little stressed out when I think about house space (even though  my house is 2200 sq ft and I only grew up with a family of five in approx 1600-1700sq ft), having to purchase a new vehicle and purchasing two of most things. I'm thankful I started Shaklee because the extra I make will def. help with buying baby stuff. Thankfully too the money that I have saved for Port Aransas (which won't be happening this year) can go towards supplies! Speaking of vehicles we will prob. wait until March or April to purchase a vehicle. I told Riley I wanted to have everything purchased and ready to go by April. That way we could rest and enjoy the kids last month of school before the babies come.

 I can't wait to find out what the babies are! I want to shop so badly (even though it's still early) but since I have no idea what they are, I hate to buy anything. Although if truth be told, I did buy the cutest pair of pink booties that I couldn't resist. I figure if they end up being both boys, I will hold onto them for a baby shower gift.  Oh and I went ahead and purchased Thirsties due wraps and 60 cloth-eez prefolds (cloth diapering). The sale was too good to pass up and if something happens I can sell them as a set. I clothed Ben and thankfully saved my diapers! The plan is to use pampers while they are newborns and while we are getting breastfeeding down. Then once we get that down move to the cloth diapers. It will really save us a ton of money!! As soon as the holidays are over I plan to get started on nursing pads and then once I find out the sex of the babies making burp clothes and baby shoes!! I can't wait, I'm so excited!!! The kids are so excited too. A few nights ago when I tucked Brady in he said, "I love you babies" to my tummy. Awwwww, I could have melted!!!

7 weeks 6 days

Today I had a sonogram to check on the babies. Given the fact that we have waited so long for this pregnancy sonograms are an exciting and scary experience for me. I have to keep reminding myself a few things...
1) this is a huge big gift from God and he didn't give us this to abandon us
2) Just because I was an infertile for so long doesn't mean that I can't carry a baby.
3) I haven't had any problems or cramping thus far (YES!!)
4) I am getting plenty of rest and I have lots of great family support in getting it!

So anyway leading up to the appointment I could feel my anxiety rising. Riley kept reminding me that he wasn't going to except anything less than GREAT! I'm glad God gave me such a great husband because he keeps me feeling safe when my heart is scared.

Today's appointment was nothing less than AMAZING! Great isn't even a good enough word! I didn't get to see my doctor because he got called into a delivery BUT I did get to see my two precious babies. I can't help but cry every time I think about it because this is all just so surreal! My due date got changed again and this time it's my birthday, July 2, 2013. The babies are measuring good at 7 weeks 6 days. Baby A had a heart rate of 160 and Baby B had a heart rate of 158.

Finding out I'm pregnant!

Thought I should go backwards a little bit before I go forwards. Most of you know our infertility struggles and our decision to adopt. Adoption was (and still is) the most wonderful thing I’ve ever done in my life. My three children have taught me so many things about myself and who I am that I didn’t know existed until they came in the picture. While their adoption brought the thing I wanted most, to be a mother, it’s always hard to swallow that you can’t get pregnant. I’ve been an infertile for so long that it’s still sinking in that I am actually pregnant, lol. The thing I LOVE most about this pregnancy is that my three beautiful children get to be a part of it! They get to witness seeing my tummy grow and then getting to love on two sweet babies. That’s so important to me considering we did CPS adoptions, showing my children the right way to love and protect something. These babies will be a great learning tool! 

So going backwards…. What made me even take a test in the first place? Well, leading up to the positive test, I noticed that I was super emotional. I would drop Ben off at his new school and cry almost the entire way home. I felt so lost and sad because my baby wasn’t at home. Then we sat down as a family to watch a movie and I got up 8 times to pee in 45 mins. We were about to go camping and according to my iperiod app on my phone my cycle should start right before we left. Since I don’t have “regular” cycles (vary from 28-50 days) the app would average when it thought I might start. So after dropping Ben off at school I thought, “Hmm, I wonder if I should stop at Target and buy a test?” I made the stop, got me a latte, put a test in the basket and then got sidetracked by all the Thanksgiving and Christmas items they were placing on the shelves. Then I looked at toys and made plans for Christmas gifts. Finally, when I got to the check-out I remembered I had put a test in the basket. I checked out I made my way to the family bathroom with my basket of groceries. I figured it would be negative and then I could go about my day and not look back. It only took a second to pop up positive and there I was in Target bawling my head off because I couldn’t believe it. I still can’t believe it! October 29^th forever changed my life. 

Shut the front door......

Last time I wrote I posted HERE about our pregnancy. It was such a shock! The next step was getting to meet my new doctor and get my first ultrasound. Well, let me just say that God had some amazing plans for us because.....

Here is my facebook entry....

 How it all went down: Today I had my first ob appt with my new doctor (last week my appt was with his nurse). Riley met me there. We spent a lot of time going over my labs and talking about my lack of a thyroid, pituitary tumor, and high blood pressure. I had to change ob’s because mine literally delivered her 

last baby two weeks ago. She is doing more cosmetic and only gyn care now. So I was really

 nervous about meeting the new doctor but he seems really nice and I will trust him to take on my care. We talked about my betas. My first one was 2910 and my second one five days later was        17, 575. He said first let’s make sure through ultrasound that the baby is viable and then we will go from there. He took me first down to ultrasound and then would bring Riley and Ben down to be with me. That is when I started crying and I knew he was a good doctor when he grabbed my hand and said, “It’s all going to be ok” and didn’t leave my side through the entire sonogram. Riley and Ben were there but kinda of up against the wall because the room was SMALL! Riley was saying, “Baby it’s a God thing, it’s ok.” When my sono popped up on the big tv screen I INSTANTLY saw the two sacks and said, “OMG RILEY WE ARE HAVING TWINS.” My doctor said, “Yes ma’am you sure are.” That is when the water works broke even more and Riley is going “What, what, OMG, YES, we did it!” Ben says, “Mommy are you ok, are you sick?” because I was crying so hard. Both babies had their own sacks, fetal poles and we heard both their heart beats. I am a week behind what we though. So the babies are 6 weeks and 3 days. Riley is just beyond himself excited and I think he has texted everyone in his phone. My neighbor texted me and said he did a dance in the driveway! Lol. As soon as the appt was over I called my brother and my SIL to tell them. Then we drove to Riley’s parents to show them (they had to pick up the older B’s since our appt ran over). We asked the kids how they would feel about two babies and they didn’t really understand. We showed them the pictures and the boys were like, ok and ran off. Brit looked star struck. My Inlaws couldn’t believe it but they are so excited. I can’t believe it myself. Shocked is not even the right word. I need a day to wrap my brain around this. God is good. I learned a very powerful lesson. He ALWAYS provides and he always answers prayers just in HIS timing. Oh and after ALL this time seeing doctors and fertility specialists (back in the day) I found out I have a heart shaped uterus. Wow, interesting! Which took my already high risk pregnancy to extra extra whole new level. :)

Our Journey to happy....

I'm sorry I've been away from my blog for a few weeks. It's been a little hectic because we pulled Ben from a two day a week program and put him in real pre-k. He is doing fabulous at the new school!! He was only in school one week when this surprise was given to us...

Looks like after almost fifteen years of marriage and three adoptions later we are expecting our 4th baby!! I have been to my ob and I am 7 weeks and 2 days today! God is soooo good! We are so excited and honestly still very shocked!!! Please rejoice with me as we continue this new journey!!!